I'm starting to believe its true that no one sees through your bull shit.

I'm starting to believe its true that no one sees through your bull shit. Not only have I been through what you've been through, but I've been through worse and you know it. This is all an act. I'm not sure who you're putting it on for but its not fooling me. Anybody with half a brain knows that if people who work till 2 am are on the downlow; unless you work in a bar. You probably got off about the same time yesterday and the whole "I gotta go back to work" thing was just as much of an act. Just so you know, I'm acting too.

What are you lookin' at? You're all a bunch of fuckin' assholes. You know why? You don't have the guts to be what you wanna be.

What are you lookin' at? You're all a bunch of fuckin' assholes. You know why? You don't have the guts to be what you wanna be. You need people like me. You need people like me so you can point your fuckin' fingers, and say "that's the bad guy." So, what'll that make you? Good? You're not good. You just know how to hide, how to lie. Me, I don't have that problem. Me, I always tell the truth... even when I lie. So say goodnight to the bad guy. Come on. The last time you gonna see a bad guy like this again, let me tell you.

Sadly enough, I've spent all evening sick, and my pants are soiled. Its not because I have no selfcontrol.

Sadly enough, I've spent all evening sick, and my pants are soiled. Its not because I have no selfcontrol. Its because you got angry and decided to put a dose in my food. Now if I used your kids to get even with you that would be wrong wouldn't it?

You're all so smug with no reason. Like a dog proud of the strength of the smell of his shit. But I'll admit you're smart. If I was doing this to someone I'd never let them up. Then again if I was doing it I'd be right. Wondering how I figure that aren't you? That is the whole point.

Yeah, I can feel the drugs in the food you cooked tonight

Yeah, I can feel the drugs in the food you cooked tonight, and I don't give a fuck if you get the whole fucking neighborhood to eat it, I don't want it. Maybe if you would fess up to drugging the food in the first place, tell me what drugs they are and why I have to take them, and then serve your time for putting them in my food without my knowledge in the first place, I'd eat it. I'm starting to smell it too. That is some nasty ass shit.

Is the beer supposed to make me like the death threats.

Is the beer supposed to make me like the death threats. What is this nasty tasting/smelling drug supposed to do? Is it supposed to make me think that someone who would drug me against my will and lie to me about it like I'm Autistic would never harm me much less kill me? You looked like you were choking on your own vomit when you came up the stairs. Part of my delusion is that I'd like you more if you were a better liar. Now tell me that's normal.

Please don't misunderstand me.

Please don't misunderstand me. I am grateful for the food even though its all been drugged. I could have not eaten at all. And I am grateful for "My Drink" as you call it; we just call it Drug Juice; you could have just left me to lap out of the toilet. How much does it cost to buy all those drugs? I suppose I should be grateful that you cared enough to go through all the trouble. I doubt that your bright enough to recognize sarcasm, so I'm telling you now...

We can only hope that my poor spelling does as much harm to you as your stupidity has done to me.

How do you rationalize the death threats?

How do you rationalize the death threats? Do you think I imagine them all? Has Bob denied the fish we found on the doorstep? Did the FBI say they never got any messages from me or placed calls to my home regarding those messages? How many times does it have to happen before you take it seriously? So many people "only joking" about killing me. So many people who have so many reasons for grinding my life to dust. There's always some special reason I don't have the same rights as other people.

I'll make you a promise, no one is ever going to kill me. But you are making me nervous.

You always fool me

You always fool me, but that's because I'm a better person than you. Its also because I don't have any choice in the matter. You should listen to your own warnings. I hope its true that people always get what's coming to them, because that means that you have a long fall coming, my friend. You remember that man you saw on TV today who you said looked pathetic. You look just like him. Just as cocky, just as ignorant. I guess you've been lying about the money too. "We" don't live like this, "I" live like this because you feel like I deserve to. Everyone does, and I'm not allowed to know why. If I could I'd spend as long hurting you as you've spent hurting me. Don't forget that.